April 20, 2021

 Today started like any other day.

I worked.  I'm seeing more people in person.  I came home in the middle of the day to wrap up with phone calls, etc. 

Around 3pm my phone started BLOWING UP, as did my work computer.  The verdict will be announced at 3:30 or 4pm, the Governor is expected to declare a curfew and a state of emergency in Mpls, and it's okay to switch patients to telehealth tomorrow if needed.  Oh, and Olive went to work in Brooklyn Center at 3pm so I was blowing up her phone with all this info telling her to go home.

Obviously, I went out to run my mile, so I could be back by 3:30pm.  

I called Mom and had her watch the news with me.  It was after 4pm when they announced the verdict.  I was surprised on the most serious of the charges, and then super relieved as the more and more guilty verdicts came in.  And then, when they cuffed him, gut punch.  And so obviously I was sobbing with Mom on the phone. Captain Smiley had me come over for a minute and then I was sobbing in his arms too. 

All of the emotions are everywhere.  

Dungeon Master asked if I wanted to walk.  I was all "I don't think I can?" and added "I can only pay attention to something for a few minutes right now.  I stand up.  I sit down.  I do that..."  And obviously five minutes later I was done with that call.  Because, yo, I can only pay attention to something for a few minutes right now.

I heard AG Ellison's address.  I have not heard Gov Walz address yet.  I assume he's made one.

I have at least one friend downtown at that vigil and one friend at 38th and Chicago at that vigil.  It's really amazing to see all these pics on tv. Everyone is kind of processing their relief, and grief and everything all at once together, which of course makes it more powerful. 

This is what I'll remember from today: